A babbling blog....

Well as predicted I am not very good at this whole blogging thing. It requires a level of dedication or attention that I cannot promise that I have.

I have on a whole been in a better mood than I have been in weeks. I had a great birthday and my hubby and daughters spoiled me. I had more fun watching my two year and eight year old give me the gifts they picked out themselves. My 8 year old picked out a beautiful heart necklace that turns out had an earth friendly aspect to it. My 2 year old decided mommy needed a Mickey Mouse watch and she makes sure that I put it on everyday. Their eyes were lit of excitement and pride. And my little one reminded me all day that we had to have cake so she could blow out the candles. So another birthday down and a year older. And my life? Didn't move forward.

I want to make something, design something, make things. Sounds probable and possibly easy. So what is holding me back? The ability to follow through on a project and I do not go to together. I am flighty and air headed. So I am anxious to go forward with anything in fear that it is yet another unfinished project in my life.

So enough self pity and moaning. I need to come up with a plan. Set goals for everyday and try to accomplish them. Now to get on the ball or off the couch or something.

I have spent hours reading blogs through general randomness. One thing that distracts me from these blogs is I have no idea what the story is. Where did it start? Why did it start? Who is this strange person I am reading about and what makes them so interesting.

So here is my who and why.

Who:

I am a thirtysomething (do not wish to divulge the exact age since I am currently not comfortable with it and my life at this point) wife and mother extrodinaire. Why Extrodinaire? What makes me special? Nothing really, but is nice to think of myself as so. I don't believe as a Stay at Home Mom (SAHM) I do anything exceptional or above any other mom. I have 2 beautiful daughters ages 2 and 8 whom my life seems to be dedicated to, I have a son in heaven watching lovingly over us. I am also married to a wonderful man. I am a volunteer for a youth organization focused on girls, I do not wish to state its name here as I am sure I will occasionally be venting. Occasionally I will help at my daughters new school but have cut back since she switched schools and they have an abundance of volunteers.

Why:

Well I am here cause one night my mommy and daddy spent a romantic evening together and 6 weeks later went "Uh-oh, it broke and the rabbit has died". But we don't need to go back that far. Why did I decide to start this blog. I need an outlet. Truth be told I may just forget that I started this and never write again, but in truth I am hoping to find a place to struggle through my thoughts and hopes. I also plan to share cute little antidotes that you can only get from 2 and 8 year old girls.

Before I decided to stay at home while pregnant with my son, I was a Network Engineer working with Network Security and the such. I worked mainly with men and one of the things I miss the most is dealing with men. Male hormones are so much easier to deal with. I have spent enough time in college that I could have multiple degrees and in the end I have none.

I love to read, but do it infrequently because I tend to get lost in a world that seems so much better than mine. I like to make things, have develled into many crafts, rarely ever stay with any for long. I like to do crosswords since they make me feel smart, unfortunately I don't think People crosswords and the likes are truly mentally straining.

So this is me, in a way it is sad, and in a way what the hell.