A babbling blog....

Well I am not sure if I am killing time or trying to move my mind forward.

My day yesterday started off great! Out the door organized and fairly on time. Kids dropped off at daycare and school. A couple of errands to be done. Costume inspection, is it correct for the play? Yep, YEAH!!! I will not be making another on the machine that doesn't want to sew. Even asked if I wanted to help her finish other costumes - the volunteer in me (which is bigger than I am and that is really big) managed to understand her limitations right now and said no. Now to get over the guilt. Dropped of material to the goddess of all things crafty, to sew a name on. Morning errands done.

Now to coffee with friends. It is always nice to sit there and chat about anything and everything that comes up. I love that I have friends that we can discuss about any topic without it being to sensitive or taboo. This blog would have to go x-rated if I got into it here. After coffee it was to the grand ole Target a second home. Did you know if you want to order 130 5x7 prints you have to manually edit every picture? An hour later they were being printed. A lovely lunch at a Japanese Steak House followed and then on to manicures and pedicures. So far the day has been very relaxing and enjoyable. That however eventually has to come to and end. Off to kill some time before my meeting that night.

Last nights meeting was for a non-profit organization that I volunteer for. I have a serious issue with volunteering and have a hard time saying no, even when I know I should. So our unit had a large upheaval last year and we are working with limited volunteer support on a unit level. I have step in and said I would help as much as I could. Even volunteered with another lady to be volunteer manager, but have been told that we are to intimidating and things can't be run like they were last year. Although we have stated we wanted to make changes and do the best we could to move forward. So everytime we opened our mouths last night we were met with a 'no other unit does it that way' okay but that doesn't mean we are doing it wrong, just not everyone elses way. Had a 30 minute discussion about how to bring in new people and leaders and then were told thanks we will put together the agenda and do what we want. Umm why waste our time if you are doing it your way in the end? I am saddened by the fact that our help seems to be unwanted just because we knew someone and what level of involvement we had with that person or the previous unit is unknown.

I miss working with men. I worked in IT and was often that only woman in my area. It was great! Men aren't pretentious and their feelings don't get all bent out of shapre for a year. You can (and I have) told a man that he could kiss my arse and I help him as soon as I could but he wasn't the most important issue I had. Know what? He responded to that reality check and our working relationship was much better after that. Tell a woman that and you will be in HR before you can say anything and then spend months or years trying to repair the damage.

Today is a new day and it will be a good one. I am not going to let it get to me. It is out of my control and it is not going to let it bother me. If you have read all this, I am sorry. I am long winded.

So I started this blog with the intention of venting and thinking and all that good stuff. Hmm it is a place to be selfish and self centered and I can't even keep up with that.

I have been working on several projects for the girls and myself. I have been ignoring my house with a passion, soon it will be hunt for underwear. Oh well. I have felt a little more alive making things and having a purpose.

I did an amateur photo shoot for a non profit organization my daughter is involved in. I mean that I am the amateur not the people being shot. I have lights I have borrowed from a friend, spotlights really. I do own a professional level camera but you know, just cause you own one doesn't mean you can take a picture worth crap. But hey my services are free and with that comes hours under hot lights, the threat of your camera being broken, and then the criticism when you give them their pictures. But all that known I am up late at night working hard on editing and cropping pictures and burning cd's.

My eldest is participating in her school's play. She is a villager, an extra really. But for the shy little thing who can barely speak to order her food, she is a villager. A mob participating villager screaming 'Kill the Beast'. I am so proud. In my pride I decided to hand maker her costume. Now you should know that I did have a time in my life I made 'period' clothing for a 'hobby' so this task should be no real problem. I had a great first day at it, until I realized that I was making Belle's costume for a villager - hmm not good. So off Bunny and I go for new fabric. We are still off to a good start. Day 2, apparently someone somewhere was having fun with me. My sewing machine no longer sews. It believes that thread is not necessary for sewing and continued to break it all day. It was a long and frustrating day but I did manage to complete it. I have my fingers crossed that no one will see all the start and stops in the seams. She is going to be the best dressed villager there - but that could just be mommy pride.

Well my cd's are done burning and my sweet dear hubby is upstairs awaiting my disruption of his slumber. I need sleep to get everyone out the door on time in the morning in preperation for my day out!!!!! Nothing says loving like quiet mommy time to do as she wishes.

Lets see if I can write again before the month disappears in the abyss.......